alexdegenhardt: (Waiting KO)
I've successfully finished my degree. The last two years of it have been especially stressfull.

Now that I've got the Bachelor's Degree in Information Science, I'm looking for a new job. I like my current job okay, it's just that I feel underchallenged. And with no challenge from my studies, I'm downright bored sometimes. The problem is that there are very few jobs in the field that I'm even close to qualified for, are in Zurich and surrounding area, and offer a 60-100% job, so that I could live on it. So far I've exactly sent off one application. I feel trapped in a holding pattern and I want to do something, but I can't.

My love life is still non-existant. I think the older I get, the more cynical I get. My life is good without a partner, it's just sometimes I wish there was someone to share my life with. And I've dipped my toes into online dating, but they either can't spell, read or have age ranges that cuts off at 5 years younger than them. Meanwhile I get hit on by guys 50 years or older. I just find that creepy. To me, it just shows that they want someone that adores them, but could never challege them. As I want a relationship with an equal, not a guy whose ego I need to prop up, they are definitely not for me. Online dating platforms have just been depressing me.

Stressed

Oct. 23rd, 2010 10:02 pm
alexdegenhardt: (Sunshine & Optimism Glee)
Long time no post.

I've started my new job. The first two weeks I spent doing nothing, just listening to people explaining me things. This week I finally got some things to do. On one hand, it's great that they really take the time to bring me up to speed. On the other hand, I'm very impatient and I like to be able to do stuff on a practical level. I think next week, I'm gonna get to do more. Yay!

I really like the people I work with. The company is relatively small, only 25 people and it's a familial atmosphere. They have a nice breakroom with a microwave, so I can take my lunch from home, which is important, because I'm now on a budget. Also every week, we get a basket of fruit delivered to the breakroom, from which we can help ourselves. I like that a lot.

Meanwhile on the school side of things, I'm stressed. There are two papers due in December. A small one which is supposed to be 8 pages and a big one that's 12-15 pages. And I've never written a scientific paper in my life, so it's scary. There's something else due Mid November. And 10 smaller things where one is due every week. I'm trying to balance all these things and eventually have more of a social life again. This week there was no school, so at least I had time to research a little bit. We'll see how it goes.
alexdegenhardt: (I Want Brains Heroes)
I got the job. Yay! I'm starting October 1. I even managed to negotiate my salary somewhat successfully. I'll start off with slightly less than I wanted, but after 3 months, when my probationary period is over, I'll get slightly more. I have all that in writing. I'm happy and relieved. I just hope I can fulfill their expectations of me... And I need to refresh my french a bit, since I'm gonna come in contact with people from the french speaking part of Switzerland on the phone from time to time.

The other thing I'm nervous about is my school. Tomorrow I'm gonna go to Chur for a 4 day introductory week of sorts. I'm excited and very nervous. I'm gonna meet my fellow classmates. God, I hope they're nice. My friend Martina, who did the whole part time student thing already, told me that it's very likely that they have similiar interests. After all, they chose the same branch of study. I hope she's right. I think I'll feel much better tomorrow evening.
alexdegenhardt: (Yay Community)
...but they're calling my references. Yay! I should hear from them sometime this week.
alexdegenhardt: (Lilo Afraid)
I'm having a little panic attack. It will pass in a bit, I'm sure. It's just that I've gotten the stuff for school yesterday, more information and things. It makes it real, you know. And it's starts very soon. From September 15-18 we have a block week and on September 21 regular class starts.

The other thing is that I had a second interview at the same company this week and I think it went well. It would be something quite different from what I've done in the past. Nothing finance related, although my job would be mostly about numbers. And if I get the job, my start date would probably be September 1, which is even sooner than the whole school stuff.

And it's just a bit much. The uncertainty is killing me and I'm a bit overwhelmed at the prospect of starting both a new job and a new school in the next 4 weeks. It's scary and I don't know if I can do this.
alexdegenhardt: (Today sucks PD)
My job search is going badly. I keep applying to jobs, from time to time getting interviews and then promptly getting rejections. It's getting to me. I feel like a gigantic loser. I know, I shouldn't take it personally, but with time you start asking yourself, whether you're the problem. It's just so frustrating. I just want this to end. I'm also starting to get bored. I miss the structure of a work day and the feeling of having done something even vaguely useful. Monday I have another appointment with my unemployment government advisor.

In the meantime, I'm hanging out with friends and family from time to time. Sunday I had dinner at my parents place, Monday I went to see a movie with my aunt, Tuesday Drinks with the girls from my Dance Aerobic Class and Wednesday BBQing with 2 of my friends. I get on well with my new roommate. We talk a lot at sometimes weird hours (a lengthy talk at 3.30 am comes to mind ;-)).

Off

Jun. 1st, 2010 11:59 pm
alexdegenhardt: (Dread one day at a time)
Something's off with my body. I don't know what exactly, but my digestion is in an uproar, I feel woozy sometimes, my skin feels itchy and more breakouts. I don't know if it's hormones or the onset of my spring allergies. Either way it sucks and it can stop anytime now, please.

Today is the first official day of my unemployment. Apparently it's not quite as easy as I thought getting a temp job. I've spent the afternoon completing step 2 in the uphill battle on getting umemployment benefits somewhere down the line. Only about a million left to go. Step 3 is I have a meeting on Thursday with my unemployment advisor. He'll probably scold me for only applying for 8 jobs.

My application file is at 4 different job placement agencies. I have a job interview on Thursday. We'll see how it goes. I want to get back to work, but I'm also spoiled, because that job would entail a 40 min. commute to work and my commute used to be 10 min. If it happens, it happens.

I get along really well with my new roommate so far. I might even like her more than my old one and I liked my old one plenty.

Sometime in the next two weeks or so, I'll find out whether or not I got into the school I've applied to. Man, I hope so.

Also in the next two weeks: I'll be turning 30. Whooooo. I don't quite know what I'll do to celebrate it. I'm thinking something lowkey. I'll have to ask my friends if/when they're free.
alexdegenhardt: (High Five PD)
-After a year long search, I found a new roommate. She's German like my previous one, 33 years old and works in a restaurant. She came by on April 29, signed the contract on April 30 and moved in on May 1. Everything was really quick.

-I sent off my application for the school I want to start in the fall. Today I received a letter saying that I fulfill all the necessary requirements to start studying there. I won't know if I got in until June, but I'm still excited and more than a little scared. I'm a little step closer to becoming a part time student in the fall.

-I cleaned out my closet, went through all my stuff. I ended up getting rid of 4 big bags of clothes. I finally have a little space in my closet. It felt really good to get rid of all that.

-I participated in a raffle to win tickets to see "Dear John" and I won. That was very unexpected! I went with my oldest friend. We had fun and got a goody bag from ELF afterwards. The movie itself is not bad, but nothing you need to see. Amanda Seyfried is adorable as always. I have a little girlcrush on her. And they filmed it in South Carolina, which looks very pretty.

-I wrote two job applications. One got me a meeting on Thursday at a job placement / temp agency. It was weird wearing business clothes after about 6 or 7 weeks of wearing very cashual clothes. I should totally write more job applications, will do that this weekend.
alexdegenhardt: (Being an adult sucks)
This day last week I had my last day at work. It was weird and emotional. They manage to get me flowers, a card and a 300 bucks gift card to a bookstore (yay!). I shook everybody's hand to say goodbye. I'm proud of myself, I've walked out of there with my head held high.

So for the past week I've done stuff I haven't had time for or always put off. You know, cleaning this and that, buying this and that, sleeping in a bit. I've had a massage, dinner with two of my friends and went to a matinee during the week. It's awesome so far. Of course, I can't putting off decisions regarding my future forever. That's the scary part. But I'm working real hard to repress that for a while.
alexdegenhardt: (Looking Back DLM)
Work continues to suck. I have a new boss since Monday. On Thursday, another person is gonna move into our already cramped office. We get to have even less space to work. We won't get any help (I still work for 1.4 people), because they used the 40% my coworker reduced somewhere else. Not where they need to, mind you. Not that they told us where. They tell us nothing anyway. I swear I get more usefull information from having lunch with coworkers/people from adjecent departments than I ever get told the official way. Turns out, one person is moving to Hong Kong for work. I know that only because I had lunch with him in the canteen.

I so need a new job. All this stuff just shows me that they don't appreciate our work at all. The people there are totally helpless without us assistants, but yeah, let's piss us off. They are all very intelligent, but have trouble finding envelopes on their own. My new office mate is similiarly pissed off. She actually told our new boss that as soon as she finds a new job, she's out of there.

Today I spent hours clicking on online job ads, but I haven't found something worth applying for. I think I need to go the job placement agency route again. It's probably easiest and fastest. I don't really have time to surf the net every day to look for a new job.

And I still haven't found a new roommate. Blergh! My life could do with a little less sucking.
alexdegenhardt: (Career family AT)
I bought myself a new computer. I'm writing this on my new MacBook Pro 13''. It's awesome and pretty and so shiny! Although I'm trying not to touch the screen as much as possible, I'm pretty sure if need be they could pull my fingerprints off it without problems. The wireless capability is nifty. I managed to pull everything off my old iBook without a hitch.

Christmas was nice. Nothing special happened, my family was as loud and funny as ever. I got to see two of my cousins again. They've grown so much. They're full on teenagers now. The older of the two wore high heel shoes and makeup (she's 14). I couldn't even walk in those shoes. Kids these days. They grow up so fast!

Work still sucks. I need to start thinking about what I really want to do and getting a new job. I had my performance appraisal on Tuesday. It wasn't bad, it was pretty much the same as last year. The thing is it was so impersonal and failed to take into account my actual performance, it was a huge letdown. I swear, if there wasn't my name on top, you would have no idea it was mine. It's just not motivational at all.

I obviously could have started to think about all that this long weekend, but I didn't, because I'm great at procrastinating. If only I could put that on my CV ;-)
alexdegenhardt: (Sunshine & Optimism Glee)
Loved the fall finale of Glee. Can it be April, like now?

I was sick again this week. I think it's because my coworker only works 60% since September. Because I basically do 140%, I'm tired all the time and lack energy. I need to take this up with my boss. I can't go on like this. Why is so hard to ask for help?

I still haven't found a new roommate. There were a few that were interested, but a lot of them never showed up for our meetings. It's really annoying. There must be someone out there, who I like and who wants to live with me, right?
alexdegenhardt: (Busy Work HIMYM)
At the moment, I'm not happy at work at all. I think it's the result of the two months I worked for two. I'm still sort of tired and grumpy because of that, even though I took a week off. And starting this week, my coworker starts to work part time (60%). I'm trying really hard not to resent him for that. I mean, it's not really his fault. But I'm just so fucking tired of being the responsible, reliable one, the one that has to take care of everything. In addition to that, I've come to the realization that while the job is a challenge on a organizational level, the rest of it is boring and I'm way overqualified. Of course, now is the perfect time to look for a job in finance *sarcasm*. I'm just fucked....

Stupid DHL

Aug. 12th, 2009 08:28 pm
alexdegenhardt: (Lilo Huh)
I ordered some shoes from Shoebuy two weeks ago. Turns out they arrived in Switzerland 12 days ago. Shoebuy contacted me to verify my address. So apparently DHL attempted delivery and didn't leave me a slip. Asses! I want my shoes. I will call them tomorrow and try to sort it out.

Also, no massage today, because my masseuse is still in Poland. Hopefully I can go on Friday.

On the plus side, I took next week off. I'm so looking forward to it. My motivation is non-existant at the moment. Yesterday I was so tired I went to bed early. I slept 7 1/2 hours on a week night, which must be a new record.
alexdegenhardt: (No icon for that)
I chose Morocco. It's still a long time away I feel. I'm just so tired at work. It's not that it's not doable, it's just that I'm sick and tired of having to do everything by myself. I'm thinking of taking a week off before my vacation. I only have to survive the next week, then my coworker will be back. Maybe a week where it's not raining cats and dogs.

Which brings me to the weather. My god, July was wet. Thankfully, it was also sunny and warm from time to time, but the amount of rain we had is staggering. And it was weird, sometimes it was raining like crazy in the morning, but by 5 or 6 o'clock it was 30 degrees Celsius. Well, I guess it's better than rain and cold.
alexdegenhardt: (Liv Tyler)
I spent a good deal of last week in bed, because I was sick with the Super Flu. Not that Super Flu is the official name or anything, it's more the first time in a while where I have been so sick and haven't felt better after 2 or 3 days. Now I only have to get rid off the cough and I'll be back to normal.

I had booked a trip to Thailand (guided tour) in May, but two weeks after I booked, they canceled the trip, because of too few bookings. I then booked a shorter trip to Greece also in May.

Continued mingling with cute guy from Business English Class: yesterday having lunch with him and his coworkers and today in Business English Class.

Only two more work days to work before the long Easter weekend. I have a meeting tomorrow about a project I have been working on for a while and I'm pretty anxious about it. I'm scared that I have forgotten something important and will therefore embarrass myself horribly.

I'm a bit annoyed about my coworker. He took the next 2 days off and has given me a lot of his work to take care of. And I get that you can't finish everything before time off, but there's a lot of stuff that I feel he was just too lazy or too unorganized to take care of. Bleh, the next 2 days will be stressful.
alexdegenhardt: (Smiling DLM)
I had a lovely, relaxing weekend, which I spent with my oldest friend, Gabi. We went to Grindelwald. Our hotel was awesome. We booked it very late, on Wednesday, arrived on Friday and we got a free room upgrade to the Panorama Suite. The Panorama Suite meant a great view, huge room, great bathroom with floor heating and a big bathtub. The Hotel had a steam room, a herbal sauna and a Finnish sauna, which we used Saturday and Sunday. It was very relaxing, sweating like mad, showering and then spending some time lying down and reading. The Hotel had 3 different restaurants, but we went to the same one twice because the food was just great and relatively cheap. The whole weekend only cost me 300 bucks, that includes my train ticket to Grindelwald, and 2 dinners, because we each got a 50 bucks discount. But all in all, what I enjoyed the most was hanging out with Gabi, talking, catching up. I just don't see her enough.

It was good that I relaxed this weekend. Because today at work, it was very hectic and stressful. We're currently understaffed and there's constantly stuff happening that requires our attention. And tomorrow the coworker I share my office with has the day off. I'm so not looking forward to fielding all these calls by myself. Bleh!

Woe is me

Oct. 27th, 2008 08:24 pm
alexdegenhardt: (Bad Day AD)
At work, it's been decided that our backoffice (basically all the assistants) of our division will be presented in the next employee magazine. That means we get our picture taken (which I hate!!!) and have to write a short text on since when we are with the company and what we do every day. While writing the text, I realized that my work consists mostly of answering phones and putting stuff into a program, which sounds like the most boring job ever. It's not quite as bad, there is interesting stuff too, but that mainly consists of stuff I see because I work there. The other issue is that I used to help someone with their work and due to staff changes I only do very little and very standard stuff in that area. I totally should have brought that up months ago, but I have been procrastinating. Helping out in that area would certainly enrich my job.

My sister, on the other hand, who finished studying to be an English and German teacher this summer and couldn't find a job as that, just got a job as head of accounting in a company. And she's gonna make 1200 more than me a year and has no formal training. I feel a bit insulted by that, to be honest. Apparently actually having experience and having trained for a certain job means nothing. I got to admire her self-confidence though. I wish I had half of that. Damn me being the oldest child. I only got saddled with being the responsible one. Bleh! And of course, this happens when I don't feel fully happy about my job.
alexdegenhardt: (Bite Me DLM)
Today was the last day of one of my coworkers. I'll miss her. In the afternoon, she asked me into her office. She told me that she thinks that I'd totally be able to do her job, but I need to sell myself better. I agree with her there. I should at least pay more attention to take credit when I deserve it. Men usually do better with that.

Now to the GRR Part. She also told me that someone mentioned to her once or twice that I was reading during work hours. As in reading non-business books. Because apparently when I'm physically at my desk, I must be working. There is simply no way I could still be on my lunch break *sarcastic eyeroll*. She didn't tell me who said it, but I have a pretty good idea. Especially since the same person blew up over a simple misunderstanding this afternoon. The woman is a part time employee that I never really warmed up to. I may have to talk to one of the team heads, not just about that, but other work stuff.

Apropos people not liking me, I think I should just give up with Office Crush. His behavior at several informal get-togethers indicates that he doesn't like me that way. I mean, he walked away and started to talk with other people, like he didn't want to be around me. He sits as far away as possible from me. I need to face reality. On the bright side, I'm going to Spain for two weeks tomorrow. Maybe I can flirt with a cute Spaniard or something.

I still need to pack. I don't wanna!
alexdegenhardt: (Need Sleep DLM)
I'm so tired. I just wanna lie down and never get up ever again.

There's just so much stuff going on. I'm doing my job and my coworker's job at the moment, because he's on holiday. And it's really getting to me. It's been 2 1/2 weeks and I'm constantly trying to do several things at once. Today I caught myself giving my computer the command to scan something, while changing an entry in our system and answering the phone. I feel like a huge whiner, 'cause every time someone asks how it's going, I'm complaining. It's just like I'm juggling five things at once and I'm scared that one day I'll just forget something important. I also really lack the patience for hand holding. Today I was copying and twice in like 10 minutes, people came by and disrupted me. Once for the super important task of finding envelopes. I was this close to exploding.

And I've been getting stuff done and getting rid of things in my private life, which is good. There is still stuff that I need to be doing this week. And it's not like they're huge, but it's a long list of things who take five minutes and I keep forgetting things and aaaahhh! On Sunday, there's the party for my grandmother's 80th birthday (not the cop helping one, the other one). I have no idea what to get her. I feel like I should get her something. I got my other grandma a voucher for dinner and a movie with me. Thing is, I actually like spending time with the other grandma. This one, not so much. I'm still recovering from spending time with her over Christmas break.

And then there's this decision I have to make about taking a business English class. A while back I filled out an test at work. The lady from the school called today and I could either take a BEC Higher Class on Thursdays from 1-2.30 pm or on Friday from 8.30-10.00 am. Both of those times suck. Thurdays we have our team lunches and 8.30 is a really sucky starting time for me, cause I usually start work at 8 and that way I would lose 2 hours of my working time. Now I don't know what to do, because a) I didn't really want to take a course in business English, but my employer would pay for it. b) Under my personal development goals, the need to improve my English is mentioned.
What I wanted to do was the Cambridge Proficiency. But the class probably would be expensive and not payed for my employer. Plus I would have to research my options and take an entry test in like the next one or two weeks. What to do, what to do.

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